It's all about YOU!

Dear Bean:
I had a doctors appointment yesterday. It was with Dr. Eugene, not Dr. Dodard- our normal OB we see, just in case Dr. Dodard is unavailable when you decide that it's time to enter the world. I was told that you are between 2 1/2 and 3 pounds and that your head is finally down. I was worried about that, that you would want to be difficult and stay transverse and I'd end up having a C-Section because of it.

Today I have the case of the "blahs" I don't know if its the dreary weather or what. I'm just tired and bored and feeling huge and want to go lay in my bed. Just yesterday I was asked by Dr. Eugene if I was sick of being pregnant and my exact response was "No, I have no complaints!" And now today I am full of complaints. I guess I'm allowed to complain every once in a while aren't I? I was told I am not drinking enough water, so I've been drinking a ton today and peeing every 2 seconds, and that's annoying. Oh and while I was just in the bathroom I heard someone in the stall unzip their pants. Normal? Of course! But to me, not a normal sound I guess. It got me thinking as I washed my hands- "Someone got to wear jeans today? No, must be their dress pants have a zipper....that's odd, none of mine do. Oh wait! Normal not pregnant people do wear pants with buttons and zippers!" Bean, it's been a good 4 months since I've worn a pair of pants that I've had to button or zip. It's so strange. I mean don't get me wrong, I love putting on my maternity pants and not having to worry that I'm having a "fat" day and have to do squats to make them fit comfortably, but I do miss my "normal" clothes. I also miss wine, beer, mixed drinks....all of it. None of these things that I miss really bother me. I don't think about them at all really until days like today when I'm tired and moody and want to complain about stuff. But I shouldn't be complaining. I should be grateful that I haven't been sick throughout this pregnancy and that I am healthy and you are healthy and still growing accordlingly and that I will be able to meet you in about 2 months!

Everyone tells me that the last 2 months are the longest, but really, 2 months left means we've already gotten through 7 and they have flown! I also keep getting asked if I'm stressed about not having everything ready. I feel like the majority of stuff is ready for your arrival. There are just a few items left that need to be purchased (Carsear/stroller combo- next month, breastpump- most likely next month as well, and your swing- being bought on Friday by Grandma Karen) And we still have Nana's shower! So that should tie up some loose ends and I'll be able to finally do some of my own shopping and not worry about spending the money on it because I might get it for a gift. I don't want to have all these things done too soon because then it will feel like I just sit around and wait for you. I want to keep busy and not feel like I have enough time to do it! At some point probably around mid-July Daddy and I need to set up your Pack N Play, Swing & highchair- yeah yeah yeah you're probably thinking "Mom why do I need a highchair when I'm so small?" Well Bean, we picked you out a top rated highchair that has many features including 3 seat positions so you can lay in it and hang out with me in the kitchen while I cook dinner if need be! But anyways, I do need to get a hospital bag packed up for myself and a diaper bag ready to go for you. But I honestly am not sure what to bring. Will I want to get dressed in my nightgown while there, or just wear a hospital gown? What will I attempt to wear home? Do I bring you your own clothes? What size? If I bring the newborn size will you fit? Or should I bring 0-3 months? Do I bring the breastpump and some bottles or will we only be attempting feeding directly from the breast at the hospital? Do I need to bring all your bath products and lotions? What will the weather be like when we bring you home? Should I bring you a sweater? A knit cap? Socks? A recieving blanket to cover you on the ride home or a fleece blanket? All the decisions! If I end up bringing everything in question we're going to end up needing a huge duffle bag and Daddy won't be too happy about that! I know the important things to bring are toiletries for myself, something comfy to come home in, my Boppy pillow and our camera of course! Oh but speaking of the hospital and all that I need to mail out our preregistration packet! I better do that tonight!

Have a good evening Bean, try not to keep me awake or too uncomfortable tonight.
Love you tons baby!
Love,
Mommy