Dear Teagan:
Halloween is in 2 days!! I can't wait! Jenn's going to bring you and the other kids into my work to show off your costumes! Then we'll go over to grandma's work and visit her too!
Tonight daddy & I are going out!! We haven't had a night out since my birthday, well besides our wedding. We're not dressing up because we're lame. :-/ Kind of upsetting. But oh well. You went to grandmas for a sleep over. Her and aunt Linny & aunt Erin came over to carve pumpkins. You loved it. You kept putting everything inside of them!! Then they took you home. Grandma & grandpa are gong to a party, so while they're gone, aunt Erin, uncle todd & uncle Tim will be home. And aunt Linny works til 9 then she'll be home. It'll be a combined effort & i just know you'll have fun!!
Okay I need to relax and enjoy the peace & quiet while daddy is out hunting!!
I love you to the moon & back baby boy!
Love,
Mommy
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Saturday, October 22, 2011
In Just A Week
Dear Teagan:
So much has happened this past week! Tuesday I went for my blood draw, Wednesday it was confirmed that I had a miscarriage. By that point I had already known and come to terms with it. Dad and I were upset, but not devastated. Everything happens for a reason....
Your Halloween costume came this week. It's awesome. I can't wait for Halloween!! You're going to be the coolest kid ever. I mean you already are actually.
You are a baby genius! We bought you a potty chair just to have so it wasn't foreign to we did start trying to potty train you. Well, the very first time we put you on it you peed!! And then the next morning you peed on it again. Then at daycare you peed on their potty!! You're doing so well! Then this morning, only 3 days after we got the potty, you pooped on it 3 times in one day!! You clap when you pee and say "pee!" It's so cute! You crawl right in the bathroom and just wait for me to help get your pants & diaper off. You're sooooo smart!!
Today we went to 2 birthday parties. You got all sorts of sugared up! Since we never let you drink anything other than milk or water, I always bring your sippy filled with water when we go places. Well, today I left it right on the counter. So you wanted a drink with your pizza at Paige's party. So I let you have a Capri Sun. You chugged it right down. Then at Wyette & Willow's party you had another one. Along with a piece of cake. Then, just now, at 7:30 right before bed, daddy let you have a few licks of a Dum Dum. Oye. It was yours in your party favor bag after all. So now it's time for your bed time baba. Hopefully it's your last. Tomorrow night I'm going to warm your breast milk and put it in a sippy cup. We'll see how well that works. Then, pretty much you'll be practically a grown up. Well, one that doesn't walk! We have to get on that! Hopefully soon! But now that we're not having another baby in the spring, it makes me sad that you're growing up. It gets me wondering what I missed out on with the assumption that I "knew" I'd always have another baby to make up for it. But now, what if I don't? I should stop thinking about the what ifs and just enjoy the what I do haves. Like you and your daddy.
I love you to the moon and back.
Love,
Mommy
So much has happened this past week! Tuesday I went for my blood draw, Wednesday it was confirmed that I had a miscarriage. By that point I had already known and come to terms with it. Dad and I were upset, but not devastated. Everything happens for a reason....
Your Halloween costume came this week. It's awesome. I can't wait for Halloween!! You're going to be the coolest kid ever. I mean you already are actually.
You are a baby genius! We bought you a potty chair just to have so it wasn't foreign to we did start trying to potty train you. Well, the very first time we put you on it you peed!! And then the next morning you peed on it again. Then at daycare you peed on their potty!! You're doing so well! Then this morning, only 3 days after we got the potty, you pooped on it 3 times in one day!! You clap when you pee and say "pee!" It's so cute! You crawl right in the bathroom and just wait for me to help get your pants & diaper off. You're sooooo smart!!
Today we went to 2 birthday parties. You got all sorts of sugared up! Since we never let you drink anything other than milk or water, I always bring your sippy filled with water when we go places. Well, today I left it right on the counter. So you wanted a drink with your pizza at Paige's party. So I let you have a Capri Sun. You chugged it right down. Then at Wyette & Willow's party you had another one. Along with a piece of cake. Then, just now, at 7:30 right before bed, daddy let you have a few licks of a Dum Dum. Oye. It was yours in your party favor bag after all. So now it's time for your bed time baba. Hopefully it's your last. Tomorrow night I'm going to warm your breast milk and put it in a sippy cup. We'll see how well that works. Then, pretty much you'll be practically a grown up. Well, one that doesn't walk! We have to get on that! Hopefully soon! But now that we're not having another baby in the spring, it makes me sad that you're growing up. It gets me wondering what I missed out on with the assumption that I "knew" I'd always have another baby to make up for it. But now, what if I don't? I should stop thinking about the what ifs and just enjoy the what I do haves. Like you and your daddy.
I love you to the moon and back.
Love,
Mommy
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Doesn't Look Good
Dear Teagan:
Well, I don't think you're going to be a big brother in May after all. The ultrasound I has yesterday showed no heartbeat. They tried to say it was maybe too early. I know better than that. I was supposed to be 8 weeks
& 2 days pregnant. With you, we saw your heartbeat at 7 weeks and 3 days.
So they called it a "threatened miscarriage." They said my hormone levels were corresponding to how far along I was so that was good. But the bleeding and no heartbeat wasnt a good sign. They said to come back on if the bleeding got heavier or if any pain started. They said to take it easy and not lift you. So around 8pm we went to snuggle in bed. We fell asleep and around midnight I felt like I had to go to the bathroom. I did. Still bleeding. 3am, I had such bad cramps it felt like labor pains. I got up and the bleeding seemed to just gush out. I went to the bathroom and then tried to go back to sleep. I couldn't. The pain was becoming constant and like a stabbing pain. At that point I just knew I was miscarrying. I just wanted it to be over. Finally I went into the bathroom again and this time I passed a large clot. Yuck. I took some Tylenol, and a hot shower. Then went back to snuggle you and daddy. I woke up a few hours later to you chatting with daddy. I felt much better.
A part of me has a bit of hope left. Like maybe it's just some crazy complication and everything will be fine. But the other part of me knows it's over.
Its weird. I don't feel sad. I mean I do, but not like I think I should.
You little man, have got me through so much this year. Having to put my beloved dog to sleep and have her die while I petted her to sleep and now this. Without you, neither of those things I would have been able to get through.
I you keep me so busy that I don't have time to dwell on things. And you make me so grateful for what I do have.
Thank you for being so sweet and wonderful.
I love you to the moon and back!
Love,
Mommy
Well, I don't think you're going to be a big brother in May after all. The ultrasound I has yesterday showed no heartbeat. They tried to say it was maybe too early. I know better than that. I was supposed to be 8 weeks
& 2 days pregnant. With you, we saw your heartbeat at 7 weeks and 3 days.
So they called it a "threatened miscarriage." They said my hormone levels were corresponding to how far along I was so that was good. But the bleeding and no heartbeat wasnt a good sign. They said to come back on if the bleeding got heavier or if any pain started. They said to take it easy and not lift you. So around 8pm we went to snuggle in bed. We fell asleep and around midnight I felt like I had to go to the bathroom. I did. Still bleeding. 3am, I had such bad cramps it felt like labor pains. I got up and the bleeding seemed to just gush out. I went to the bathroom and then tried to go back to sleep. I couldn't. The pain was becoming constant and like a stabbing pain. At that point I just knew I was miscarrying. I just wanted it to be over. Finally I went into the bathroom again and this time I passed a large clot. Yuck. I took some Tylenol, and a hot shower. Then went back to snuggle you and daddy. I woke up a few hours later to you chatting with daddy. I felt much better.
A part of me has a bit of hope left. Like maybe it's just some crazy complication and everything will be fine. But the other part of me knows it's over.
Its weird. I don't feel sad. I mean I do, but not like I think I should.
You little man, have got me through so much this year. Having to put my beloved dog to sleep and have her die while I petted her to sleep and now this. Without you, neither of those things I would have been able to get through.
I you keep me so busy that I don't have time to dwell on things. And you make me so grateful for what I do have.
Thank you for being so sweet and wonderful.
I love you to the moon and back!
Love,
Mommy
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Ugh
Dear Unborn Baby No Name:
I'm sitting in the emergency room exam room waiting for a doctor to come in. I started bleeding pretty heavy late last night and this morning. I called my doctor and they said to come in. I've already given them a urine sample and blood. I think we're waiting to get that back. Then they'll be able to tell if I'm losing you according to my hcg levels. I'm devastated and I don't even know the outcome yet. I'm trying to remain positive...but it's hard. I haven't had any cramping, which is a good sign. No keep thinking a miscarriage couldn't happen to me. But at the same time I'm preparing myself for the worst. This sucks.
I'll write more when we're done here.
I love you and I hope you're okay in there.
Love,
Mommy
I'm sitting in the emergency room exam room waiting for a doctor to come in. I started bleeding pretty heavy late last night and this morning. I called my doctor and they said to come in. I've already given them a urine sample and blood. I think we're waiting to get that back. Then they'll be able to tell if I'm losing you according to my hcg levels. I'm devastated and I don't even know the outcome yet. I'm trying to remain positive...but it's hard. I haven't had any cramping, which is a good sign. No keep thinking a miscarriage couldn't happen to me. But at the same time I'm preparing myself for the worst. This sucks.
I'll write more when we're done here.
I love you and I hope you're okay in there.
Love,
Mommy
Monday, October 10, 2011
One Week From Today
Dear Unborn Baby No Name:
1- Don't worry, we won't call you that forever.
2- One week from today I will have my appointment with the nurse at my doctor's office. I'm still not sure why I am required to go, since I just went through all this stuff with your brother less than 2 years ago. They're going to tell me what I should and shouldn't eat, what to expect at dr visits, warning signs & when to call the dr, signs of labor, all that good stuff. Oh well, it gets me out of work for an hour or so, and it's a good refresher. Things change all the time, so maybe I'll learn something new.
Then, one week and one day from today we'll get to see you!! Yay! I'm so excited to see your little heart beating and you jumping all over in my belly. It'll make me feel so relieved to know everything is good in there. As soon as we see you, we'll most likely change your "name" to fit what you look like.
But either way, I can't wait to see you!!
I love you to the moon and back!
And I can't wait to kiss your little face!
Although your brother is only a little over a year old, it's still seems so long ago that we had a newborn in the house!!!
Love you always,
Mommy
1- Don't worry, we won't call you that forever.
2- One week from today I will have my appointment with the nurse at my doctor's office. I'm still not sure why I am required to go, since I just went through all this stuff with your brother less than 2 years ago. They're going to tell me what I should and shouldn't eat, what to expect at dr visits, warning signs & when to call the dr, signs of labor, all that good stuff. Oh well, it gets me out of work for an hour or so, and it's a good refresher. Things change all the time, so maybe I'll learn something new.
Then, one week and one day from today we'll get to see you!! Yay! I'm so excited to see your little heart beating and you jumping all over in my belly. It'll make me feel so relieved to know everything is good in there. As soon as we see you, we'll most likely change your "name" to fit what you look like.
But either way, I can't wait to see you!!
I love you to the moon and back!
And I can't wait to kiss your little face!
Although your brother is only a little over a year old, it's still seems so long ago that we had a newborn in the house!!!
Love you always,
Mommy
Sunday, October 9, 2011
You're So Smart!
Dear Teagan:
You are so smart! You're learning new things every day! Your vocabulary is really taking off too! You are so interested in books lately. You bring me or dad books to read when you are sleepy and ready for bed or a nap. Then once we finish the book I just tell you to go get another one and you go to the bookcase and grab another one and bring it to me! It's so great that you are so interested in reading!!
This weekend has been wonderful! It's been in the 70s and so nice out. Yesterday we played outside for most of the day with cousins Wyette & Willow. You loved it. You love being outside! Then you got to play with Emmy & Brayden while
we went to dinner with their parents. You guys all went to grandmas so Aunt Linny & Uncle
Tim could watch you. I think you all had fun.
We were supposed to go to Syracuse today to get you some ner shoes that'll hopefully help
you walk, but daddy said if we waited until next weekend he'd go with us, since this weekend is probably the last nice weekend for a long time. Hopefully if we get you some good walking shoes, you might want to actually walk! You're doing better and better with pushing toys around the house and pulling up and cruising the furniture. Just when it comes to standing on your own, you get scared and immediately sit
down!
Today you pooped on the potty! You took a shower with me and I got out and was drying off, I heard the unmistakable sound of you trying to poop. So I quick opened the door and grabbed you out. I plopped you down on the toilet and let you do your business. You weren't nearly as excited about pooping on the potty as I was for you. I mean, I didn't have to clean poop
off the shower floor (again) and I saved a diaper! Two scores for mommy!! :-)
Okay, while you lay in my bed snoring away, I should go make that apple sauce I promised you I would make!!
I love you to the moon and back baby!
Love,
Mommy
You are so smart! You're learning new things every day! Your vocabulary is really taking off too! You are so interested in books lately. You bring me or dad books to read when you are sleepy and ready for bed or a nap. Then once we finish the book I just tell you to go get another one and you go to the bookcase and grab another one and bring it to me! It's so great that you are so interested in reading!!
This weekend has been wonderful! It's been in the 70s and so nice out. Yesterday we played outside for most of the day with cousins Wyette & Willow. You loved it. You love being outside! Then you got to play with Emmy & Brayden while
we went to dinner with their parents. You guys all went to grandmas so Aunt Linny & Uncle
Tim could watch you. I think you all had fun.
We were supposed to go to Syracuse today to get you some ner shoes that'll hopefully help
you walk, but daddy said if we waited until next weekend he'd go with us, since this weekend is probably the last nice weekend for a long time. Hopefully if we get you some good walking shoes, you might want to actually walk! You're doing better and better with pushing toys around the house and pulling up and cruising the furniture. Just when it comes to standing on your own, you get scared and immediately sit
down!
Today you pooped on the potty! You took a shower with me and I got out and was drying off, I heard the unmistakable sound of you trying to poop. So I quick opened the door and grabbed you out. I plopped you down on the toilet and let you do your business. You weren't nearly as excited about pooping on the potty as I was for you. I mean, I didn't have to clean poop
off the shower floor (again) and I saved a diaper! Two scores for mommy!! :-)
Okay, while you lay in my bed snoring away, I should go make that apple sauce I promised you I would make!!
I love you to the moon and back baby!
Love,
Mommy
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Unborn Baby No Name
Dear Unborn Baby No Name:
I just got a call from my doctors office. I went for my first appointment to confirm that I was pregnant on Tuesday. They did blood work to get my hcg levels and to make sure they were high enough to schedule an ultrasound. So they just called to tell me that my hcg levels were in and that they had scheduled an ultrasound! They couldn't tell me the exact levels because their computers were down. But at least we have an appointment to get our first look of you! When I was pregnant with your brother I got my first ultrasound when I was 7 weeks and 3 days along. All we saw was a little blob with a flickering heartbeat. I'm hoping when I go to see you we see a gummy bear shaped figure. Either way, to know that you have a strong beating heart is all that matters. And to see whether or not there are one or 2 of you in there! Once again, grandma is hoping for 2!
We told your aunts and grandpa & grandma on Sunday when they all came over for dinner. We put Teagan in a shirt that said "I'm going to be a big brother!" And waited to see who noticed. It was grandpa that noticed first. Him and grandma were so excited. Then we text the picture to aunt Lindsey since she had to work. Then aunt Erin came and she noticed and told Uncle Todd & Uncle Tim. Then Monday night Nana & Papa came over and we just came out and told them. We tried to put Teagan's shirt on him the Wednesday before to show Nana & Papa, but they didn't even notice!!
It was crazy! So we just told them. Then text the picture to Aunt Kim to tell her and she could show Uncle Greg.
Everyone is excited about you coming. Especially the time of year. Late May. I'll get to be home with you all of June. What a perfect time to have a baby.
I can't wait to see you in 12 days! And I can't wait to meet you in May!!
I love you so much already!
Love,
Mommy
I just got a call from my doctors office. I went for my first appointment to confirm that I was pregnant on Tuesday. They did blood work to get my hcg levels and to make sure they were high enough to schedule an ultrasound. So they just called to tell me that my hcg levels were in and that they had scheduled an ultrasound! They couldn't tell me the exact levels because their computers were down. But at least we have an appointment to get our first look of you! When I was pregnant with your brother I got my first ultrasound when I was 7 weeks and 3 days along. All we saw was a little blob with a flickering heartbeat. I'm hoping when I go to see you we see a gummy bear shaped figure. Either way, to know that you have a strong beating heart is all that matters. And to see whether or not there are one or 2 of you in there! Once again, grandma is hoping for 2!
We told your aunts and grandpa & grandma on Sunday when they all came over for dinner. We put Teagan in a shirt that said "I'm going to be a big brother!" And waited to see who noticed. It was grandpa that noticed first. Him and grandma were so excited. Then we text the picture to aunt Lindsey since she had to work. Then aunt Erin came and she noticed and told Uncle Todd & Uncle Tim. Then Monday night Nana & Papa came over and we just came out and told them. We tried to put Teagan's shirt on him the Wednesday before to show Nana & Papa, but they didn't even notice!!
It was crazy! So we just told them. Then text the picture to Aunt Kim to tell her and she could show Uncle Greg.
Everyone is excited about you coming. Especially the time of year. Late May. I'll get to be home with you all of June. What a perfect time to have a baby.
I can't wait to see you in 12 days! And I can't wait to meet you in May!!
I love you so much already!
Love,
Mommy
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
A New Baby
Dear Teagan:
Today marks the day that Daddy & I found out you were going to be a big brother! We've been wondering for the past week, but all the tests said negative. So finally, today we got a positive.
Daddy and I are going to have date night tonight to celebrate and you are going to Uncle Todd's football game with Grandma, Grandpa & Aunt Erin.
Daddy and I are a little confused why 3 tests said negative and only one said positive, so we're going to probably buy some more tests. I am wondering if maybe it's a false positive. That would really stink. But for now, we won't tell anyone for a while until we're sure. I'm so excited just thinking about it though! You'll make such a great big brother!! :-)
I love you to the moon & back baby.
Love,
Mommy
9/24/11
Today marks the day that Daddy & I found out you were going to be a big brother! We've been wondering for the past week, but all the tests said negative. So finally, today we got a positive.
Daddy and I are going to have date night tonight to celebrate and you are going to Uncle Todd's football game with Grandma, Grandpa & Aunt Erin.
Daddy and I are a little confused why 3 tests said negative and only one said positive, so we're going to probably buy some more tests. I am wondering if maybe it's a false positive. That would really stink. But for now, we won't tell anyone for a while until we're sure. I'm so excited just thinking about it though! You'll make such a great big brother!! :-)
I love you to the moon & back baby.
Love,
Mommy
9/24/11
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)
