Teagan Daniel Cole
7 pounds 13 ounces
21 inches long
Perfect in every way

Friday, October 10, 2014

No More "Bays"

Dear Vivian:
Finally, finally, finally you're no longer nursing. It was just getting so stressful. I couldn't go anywhere after work with out you whining and crying and following me around screaming "bays!" and trying to rip my shirt down. It was embarrassing, not that you were still nursing, but because you were uncontrollable. But you've been done nursing for almost 2 months now. It's nice. While you were still nursing I felt like it was normal and that you we're still a baby and now that you've stopped I can't imagine nursing you. You seem like such a big girl.
You're so girly and getting to be all independent. You love necklaces, sit right still to get your earring changed, wear shoes all the time around the house and you just love getting your nails painted! I'm soooo happy that you're as girly as you are! You just aren't a fan of headbands. You put them on, tell us to "wook it!" and then rip it off after we tell you it's pretty.

You're doing soo sooo good with potty training! I do believe we will have ditched diapers by the time you're 2! The last 3 mornings you've gotten up and told me you had to go potty and your diaper is dry! You tend to have more accidents if you're running around the house with no clothes on, which you often do.

We had another episode of hand, foot, mouth disease. A few weeks back Zander came over for a sleepover on a Saturday night and he had a bit of a low grade fever, but I chalked it up to teething. Sunday morning he still had it and you fell asleep for your nap at like 10:30-11ish, which was really odd. By the time I got home from dropping Zander off you were up and running a 101 fever! And it wouldn't go down all day with anything! It got up to 104. So I kept you home from daycare on Monday. Sent you Tuesday & Wednesday, but Wednesday afternoon I had to pick you up early because you had the rash on your hands and feet. It didn't seem to bother you nearly as much as it did last time, thank God!

Alrighty, better get back to work now!
Love you tons baby girl!
Love,
Mommy

Our Adventurous Summer

Dear Teagan and Vivian:
This summer has been wonderful. Busy, but wonderful nonetheless!
Memorial weekend we went camping for the night at Cedar Point. Viv had Hand, Foot, Mouth Disease or so we thought. Your feet were red and scaly and just an itchy mess and you were miserable for days. Finally I took you to the dr and they confirmed that it was indeed hand, foot, mouth disease, but it lingered for weeks after that.
Soccer was a disaster the entire season for Teagan. You would argue about going and tell me every week how you hated soccer. It didn't matter who came to watch or what team you played against. It was awful. You didn't try to go after the ball. I think you were intimidated by it or something. You would run the path that the ball traveled but refused to touch it. Once you did touch it and like tapped it into the goal and we made a HUGE deal about it and your response was "Can I be done with soccer now so we can go get some ice cream?" Next year I'm considering coaching and putting all your friends on my team and requesting whatever color shirt you want in hopes you'll like it better. I tricked you just the other night when we drove by the soccer field and told you we were going to play again...you didn't complain, just asked if you were on the red team this time. So we'll see.
Camping over the 4th of July was a blast as usual. Vivian was a bit of a beast. I think it just took some time to getting used to being outside and always on the go go go all day every day. But with the help of your aunts and grandma and everyone else we camp with, I was still able to enjoy myself despite your nonsense.
We also got rid of your binkies this summer Viv! You were down to really only having them in the car and during naps or nighttime. Well one evening I was getting your water cup ready to lay down ansd read a book before bed and I asked you if you wanted your binky and your response was "No. Moo moo" And I asked what about the moo moos and you said "Binky. Baby moo moo" So I asked if you gave it to the baby moo moos and you said yes. So that night you didn't have one and haven't had one since. That was July 16. Anytime you did ask we'd just tell you that you gave it to the baby moo moos and all was well. Until one day you found one. Then we had to literally go out back and throw it to the baby moo moo. Luckily you don't throw very far and I could reach in the fence and retrieve them before a cow did try to eat the darn thing.

Nana's wishes for Father's Day was to have a big cookout/family reunion with all of her family. Although she is no longer with us, her sister wanted to make it happen regardless because that's what she would have wanted. So we had a big family cookout at Poppy's house. It was a difficult day knowing Nana would have loved so much that it happened and she couldn't be there to enjoy it. That's one of the hardest things about her being gone...knowing how much she would have loved these things and appreciated them.

Well I've gotta go. To be continued since I missed posting all summer.

Love you to the moon and back babies.
Love,
Mommy

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Soccer

Dear Teagan:
Last month we signed you up for soccer through the school and you were so excited about it that you called everyone to tell them and to see if they would come watch you.
Friday night I brought you home soccer cleats, socks and shin guards. You were still stoked.
Then everything changed yesterday when I got a call from your coach informing us that you are on the "purple team." Suddenly you started "hating" soccer and the color purple. You were mad because you wanted to be on the red team. I think you may have been having anxiety about it because after we put you in bed last night you came out twice telling us that you weren't playing soccer because you don't like it. You woke up singing the same tune this morning. When we got to Jenn's, both Brylee and Haylee came running up to you and were so excited about playing soccer tonight. You said you weren't going. Finally this afternoon you got excited about it again. Jenn text me telling me that you said you were going to play. Phew! I was so not ready for the meltdown that soccer was going to bring tonight.
Now lets just hope that it doesn't get cancelled! Daddy says that a storm was rolling into Gouverneur a bit ago. That'll stink if the first day gets rained out!

I had Friday off and you had been asking for Willow to come over, so we had her over all day. That was a busy, but fun filled day!

Oh, a couple weeks ago we went on a mission to find worms around our house and Poppy's. You had him turning over all sorts of big stuff and were pulling worms out left and right. We then went fishing in the pond and caught all sorts of fish! You were so excited and even reeled in a fish all by yourself! It was great. I got it on video. You were so proud of yourself for being able to catch the fish and reel it in.

Oh geez, it's time to get going to soccer!
I love you to the moon and back baby!
Love,
Mommy

Monday, April 28, 2014

Devastation

Dear Kids:
Back in January, we found out the Nana's cancer was terminal and very rare as well as aggressive. She told me that the doctors had given her 2-4 months to live and she was not going to try chemo. I went to a second opinion appointment with her and was basically told the same thing. They said chemo would only add a few more months on. So she opted not to do it, if she only had a few months left she wasn't going to be sick from chemo.
Nana didn't seem any different. Maybe a little more tired, but she was still fun nana. Spoiling you babies rotten, popping over to play, having dinner and drinks with mommy & daddy...everything seemed normal. She even mentioned more than once that she thought all the drs were wrong since she felt so good! We had a birthday party for her that was supposed to just be us family at Wegatchie, but we invited old high school friends, the whole extended family, everyone who could come, came. She had a blast! I took so many pictures! It was such a great time!
She bought Teagan the coolest Thomas the Train rain boots and you just want to wear them everywhere. I don't think you've worn anything other than them since you got them at the beginning of February! And then you Miss Vivian kept trying to put them on so Nana bought you zebra print boots with pink bows. Oh do you love them! And they're so stinkin cute on you! Everywhere we go we get comments on them!
For Nana's birthday present we bought her and poppy a room at the Akwesasne Mohawk Casino in Hogansburg and daddy and I got a room as well as Greg & Kim. We were going to go the first weekend in March. But then Nana ended up in the hospital with pneumonia. So we rescheduled for a few weeks later. But again, Nana ended up in the hospital...that's when we learned that her cancer spread to her stomach, adrenal glands, intestine, everywhere in her abdomen. We also learned she was coming home on Hospice. They said they figured she only had about 2 weeks left....she lasted exactly 2 weeks from the day she came home.
The day she came home we brought you guys over to see her. For the most part she was normal nana. Vivian sat on her lap eating goldfish and putting every other one in Nana's mouth while Teagan sat next to her sharing a small cup of ice cream with her. Vivian hated the oxygen tubes in her nose and kept trying to pull them off her face. She just lifted it up and put it in her hair like she would glasses. Then that was the last time you (Teagan) saw Nana. I brought Viv over one Saturday while daddy and you slept. Viv- Nana was just going down for a nap after a bunch of visitors and I brought you over and you snuggled right up with nana in her bed. You had just woken up from your nap so you were still in a calm snuggly mood. It was just perfect. And then that was the last time you saw her.
She never wanted us to bring you guys over to see her once she was really sick. She didn't really want any of us to see her so sick. It was tough.
Explaining it was really hard. Teagan- we just told you that Nana was in heaven now and became an angel. You didn't understand and had a lot of questions which (with the help of a social worker) we were prepared to answer. You talk to her all the time and say things like "I'm going to show this to my nana!" And you hold up whatever it is you want to show her. The night that we told you we went over to Poppy's house and Wyette and Willow were there as well. We were trying to make a collage of pictures of all you kids with her with a poem signed from you guys. While we made it, all you kids were checking out all the pictures and pointing out what you were all doing in the picture with Nana. It was really sweet...then someone said "I miss nana." Then everyone was saying it and the meltdowns started. So basically there we all were crying. It was so sad. After that we lit a lantern and sent it up to her. We've been sending them up here and there. On Easter we were all at our own houses and sent them up at the same time. It was neat.

We'll never forget her. We have tons of pictures and memories and can talk to her all the time. She always will love us and keep an eye on us.

I love you babies tons to the moon and back.
Love,
Mommy

Friday, April 25, 2014

Bath Tubs

Dear Teagan and Vivian:
Before you guys came along I used to go to friends with kids houses and when I used their bathrooms I would see the shower curtain open with tons of bath toys scattered about. I would think "why wouldn't they put the toys somewhere and close the curtain?!" 
Ha! Now that I have kids...as in more than one...I see why now. Getting 2 kids out of the bath and lotioned up and dressed, there is no time to pick up toys. There are too many to fit in the designated bin anyway, and it's just not with the trouble when they'll all be out the next day anyway. 
It's funny how I was so quick to judge other parents before I had kids. 
Now I get it.
It's hard keeping up with life. Some days I have it all under control and others it's just complete chaos.
When the house is clean and we have groceries and I have a menu planned, life is so much easier. But I typically get cleaning done on the weekend as well as grocery shop and then menu plan and prep for meals on Sundays, but it just seems like I've been slacking.
Oh well. I'll figure out how to be organized and manage my time better at some point!
I love you babies to the moon and back.
Love,
Mommy

Walking!!

Dear Vivian:
You finally started walking!! You're so cute toddling around everywhere. It was right after New Years and you were already taking steps here and there and then finally just went. First it was after the cat and when you realized you were doing it you'd sit down, but then you got pretty confident and just started going. Now you're in to everything!
You got a new cousin on January 7th! Aunt Erin got induced in the middle of a huge snow storm. Luckily daddy stayed home with you guys while I went to the hospital and I didn't have to take you out in the nasty weather. I almost wasn't able to make it home. They were closing roads left and right and ticketing people that were out and about. Super scary week that's for sure. But you have a new baby cousin Zander. You guys got to meet him a few days after he was born. Teagan just loved him right up, but you didn't care too much for him, you were more interested in gouging his eyes out and shoving his binky in his face.
I hope you guys end up as close as I am with my cousins. Perhaps your relationship could be like mine and Sams! We're really close in age like you guys are.
Okay so anyway, I've gotta get going.
I love you to the moon and back Vivi Boo!
Love,
Mommy

Monday, December 30, 2013

Christmas!!!

Dear Teagan & Vivian:
The last week or 2 have been quite the adventure!
First Nana went into the hospital Tuesday, December 17 because she was having chest pains and couldn't breathe. The found fluid in her lungs and around her heart. Then the next day was Uncle Greg's birthday so we went to their house and had pizza and wings and called Nana and all you kids sang "Grandma Got Ran Over by a Reindeer." It was so cute and she just loved it. Then Thursday I took off because no one would be around for Wyette to get off the bus and because Hannah at daycare had the flu and I didn't want to risk you guys getting sick for Christmas.
Then Friday night the ice storm began. It was complete craziness trying to drive home in the dark with you two talking my ear off and my wipers weren't working so I was ducked down trying my hardest to see out the very bottom of my window.
Right when I got home Poppy came over and told us that they found out that Nana has cancer somewhere in her stomach cells. Daddy was really upset, naturally. It was a tough night.
Saturday rolled around and all was well...it was doing a lot of freezing rain but it wasn't too too bad....but that changed quickly. We were supposed to go to my Grandma O'Connell's and then you guys were going to have a sleepover with Grandma & Grandpa while Daddy and I went to Jenn's ugly sweater party and then we were going to go to Uncle Greg's birthday party. But none of that happened. Daddy didn't want to leave the house because it was already super slippery & icy out and it was only going to get worst. Then suddenly 3 came and silence....the power went out. It was all fun & games until it started getting dark. We had so many candles going and the burners on our stove. It actually kept our house nice and warm. But you guys were bored. I gave you glow bracelets and you sat in the kitchen and played with them and pretended to be camping and the glow sticks were your fire in my collander. It was so cute. Considering the circumstances you guys were pretty well behaved. We went over to see Poppy for a bit since he has a generator...but it broke. So back home we went. We put you kids to bed in my room and daddy and I cooked some venison sandwiches. They turned out pretty good for being made in the dark!!  We all slept in my bed to keep warm since we couldn't have the stove or candles going. The power came on aroound 10:45 and was only on for about a half hour.
On Sunday we got up and went to Aunt Erin's house. I was supposed to work but couldn't get to work because of the weather and couldn't shower or anything else to get ready. At Aunt Erin's I made some spinach squares and she was making cookie dough when we got there so we made frosting and baked the cookies. Teagan, you loved it! Such a good helper you were cutting out the cookies and putting the sprinkles on them. We ended up staying the night since we still didn't have power at our house. Daddy called Home Depot at 7pm Sunday night and asked if they had generators in and they said they were just unloading them. So stayed up until they updated their website to reflect that they had some and paid for it online so he could go get it the next morning. Which he did. He got right up and headed to Watertown. I showered and got all ready at Aunt Erin's and headed home to finish getting ready for work. Daddy and Uncle Greg got the generator up and running and off to work I went.
I left work early to go see Nana at the hospital. They told her she would be in the hospital for Christmas. She was so sad about missing everything. Greg's birthday, Wyette's Christmas concert at school and now Christmas.
After I left the hospital I picked up some wine and Chinese food and headed home. You guys were already at home with Daddy and Uncle Greg and Kim and the kids were here. They didn't have a generator or anything so they wanted to get showers and get out if their house for a bit. 
I started up until like 1am drinking my wine and wrapping presents to the sound of the generator.
Christmas Eve rolled around and I had the day off and we still didn't have real power and Nana was still at the hospital. Poppy stopped over to let me know he was running to town for more gas then to the hospital to be with Nana, and that if I saw the National Grid truck on our road to call him right away so he could unhook his generator. While he was gone Nana called me. She said they were kicking her out of the hospital and she was ready to leave and couldn't get ahold of poppy. I had Teagan call daddy at work and tell him. He said "Nana's coming home today daddy!" At first he didn't believe it but then he did. He ended up leaving work early because he was so emotional about it. Before daddy got home poppy called to say that he saw National Grid up the road and that they thought he all had power already! So they were going to fix ours now that they knew (which they should have since I reported an outage like fifty million times a day) Since Poppy needed to be home when they power came on he sent Daddy to go pick up Nana. He was so excited! What a awesome Christmas present.
A while back we had talked about doing Christmas Eve at Nana's since last year by the time we all got there at dinner time all the kids were so tired. Kim made meatballs and got a cheese and cracker tray and we went over to see her around dinner time after she had a chance to rest a bit. We didn't celebrate Christmas with gifts that night though. We were just all together. After we left daddy fell asleep at like 9-9:30ish and I was left to get ready for Santa. 
Christmas morning we got up and opened presents, got ready and headed to Nana's to celebrate Christmas over there. I made a nice breakfast casserole and popped it in the oven when we got there so it could bake while we opened presents. Nana looked 100 times better than she did the night before. She was in such a great mood and was so excited for everyone's presents!
By about 1pm she was tired and we headed on to Grandma's for more gifts and dinner. It was such a great day with family. You kids loved all your presents....and got a ton!! Viv was at cranky by the time we got to grandmas and Teagan you opened all your presents there in such a hurry that you were finished before anyone else and mad you didn't have any more to open.

I had the rest of the week off so I could stay home and play with all your new stuff with you guys. Our house was a straight up disaster after not having power for 4 days and then Christmas. Holy moly. Grandma and grandma came over the day after Christmas to see what all you guys got and that helped keep you distracted while I tried to get a few things cleaned up. 
Now we need a bigger house to put it all in!!

I love you babies. I hope you had a great Christmas!
Love, 
Mommy