Teagan Daniel Cole
7 pounds 13 ounces
21 inches long
Perfect in every way

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Belly Laughs

Dear Vivian:
Last night I was in Teagan's room getting his pajamas on him and you were getting yours on with Daddy and I heard you laugh out loud for the first time. It was the cutest little laugh. I'm sad that I didn't get to see it because I was busy and by the time I got in there you had stopped. I tried the rest of the night and this morning to get you to laugh for me and daddy kept trying to get you to laugh again and you weren't. Oh well, I know you will again eventually.

So last week Daddy was laid off. But he found another job at a different company and started back at work on Monday. But while he has his week off you stayed home with him Monday, Tuesday & Wednesday and I took Teagan to daycare and then on Thursday you went to daycare and Teagan got to have his day home with Daddy. Then Friday daddy got a day home to himself and you both when to hang out at Grandma's with Grandpa and Aunt Linny.

Like I may have said before, I was concerned about how much you'd get held and how much interaction you'd get at daycare because of all the other kids, but I think you're doing great there! Yesterday Jenn said you did tummy time and practiced sitting up. Daddy put you in the Bumbo seat that my friend Brianna gave us from her girls and you sat up okay in it, but your head just isn't quite strong enough to stay up for any length of time. So you pretty much slouched over in it.

Things are still crazy when we get home at night. Last week was great with daddy laid off because he had time to get things done and start or make dinner. He's still really helpful when it comes to me asking him to do things though. I feel bad asking him to do all this stuff, but he has like 2 more hours to do things at night than I do....and I don't get time to rest so why should he?! I get up an hour or more earlier than him and sometimes am up for up to an hour during the night if you decide you need a snack or Teagan has to pee or needs some milk or the dog needs out or whatever.

Time to head out of here and come pick you guys up!!
I love you to the moon and back baby girl!!

Love,
Mommy

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Life's Crazy

Dear Teagan:
I came back to work on Tuesday. I was supposed to start on Monday, but I came down with a stomach bug. I was so worried about you and Vivian going to daycare since 4 of the kids from daycare had it over the weekend and 2 of their parents had it. But then it was me who got it. So far, you guys are still in good health!!
Things are crazy at home, just as I expected. You're not used to going to daycare everyday and being rushed every morning, so it's a hassle to get you out the door. And your sister, well she's just hard to predict when she'll be hungry and as you know, hates her carseat.
Night time is even worst. You are my stick-tight. It's so hard to get anything done because you're all about mommy. I don't know how to make you see/understand it's not all about you anymore. On one hand I feel like Vivian doesn't know any better so instead of hurting your feelings and routine, I do everything the same with you and daddy is on Vivian duty, but then on the other hand, I feel really bad that I don't get to spend any time with her...like at all. Unless I'm nursing her. Because mornings are crazy and then evenings and night time are even crazier. So she's lucky if she gets more than like an hour of intereaction with me throughout an entire day! It's just heart breaking. I wish you could hang out with daddy more. It's not that you don't like him, it's just you want mommy at night. I guess that's what happens when I've held you every single night before bed for your whole life. Old habits die hard. Although you did go through a daddy phase after I stopped nursing you. I wonder how we can get some type of routine down where on the Vivian's bath nights, you sit and read or watch TV with daddy.
The bad behavior you were presenting the first few weeks after Vivian came home are now subsiding. I think you've learned that it's not getting you anywhere, so that's good.

Although the company that daddy works for has no work, he's still working, for now. It's a guessing game whether or not he'll get laid off. Well, more like an if and when. There's talk of work up in Plattsburg, which will mean he'd be out of town from Sunday night to either Thursday night or Friday night, depending if they worked 4 ten hour days or not. I can not do it all alone. Absolutely not. It's way too hard with him home and me getting home at 6. I have a total of 3 hours to get 2 kids fed, bathed, myself fed, dinner cooked, milk pumped, bottles and pump parts washed, lunch ready for the next day, dinner dishes done, etc. Since daddy's working close to home, he gets home around 4 and usually washes the dinner dishes from the night before and tidies up the house and does a load or 2 of laundry. Which is very helpful! I just can't do it without him.

I'm looking for a new job. Either a little closer to home or an 8 to 4 or even 8 to 4:30 schedule. Any extra time at home at night would make a world of a difference.

Well, off to run a bazillion errands on lunch! I love you to the moon and back baby.

Love,
Mommy