Ugh

Dear Unborn Baby No Name:
I'm sitting in the emergency room exam room waiting for a doctor to come in. I started bleeding pretty heavy late last night and this morning. I called my doctor and they said to come in. I've already given them a urine sample and blood. I think we're waiting to get that back. Then they'll be able to tell if I'm losing you according to my hcg levels. I'm devastated and I don't even know the outcome yet. I'm trying to remain positive...but it's hard. I haven't had any cramping, which is a good sign. No keep thinking a miscarriage couldn't happen to me. But at the same time I'm preparing myself for the worst. This sucks.
I'll write more when we're done here.
I love you and I hope you're okay in there.
Love,
Mommy