Feeling Discouraged

Dear Bean:
It seems as though you will not be making your debut this weekend. Or probably within the next week. I'm feeling like I want to punch everyone that ever told me I wouldn't make it until my due date because I'm pretty sure I'll go over. I woke up in a fantastic mood today and was feeling extremely optimistic about my appointment. I even packed my bag in the car along with my Boppy and a bag for daddy just in case he had to leave from work. Well lo and behold you are not making an appearance any time soon. Only dilated to 1 cm. So basically I went from "starting to dilate" to dilated to 1 cm. I thought for sure with all the contractions I've been having that they would have dilated me more than that! I knew I should have just declined being checked today. I left the OB office wanting to cry. I feel like I will be eternally pregnant. I know I shouldn't feel like this with a week left until my due date, but I do. I just want you out. I want to meet you and hold you and kiss you and cuddle you and everything else.
But on the bright side, I won't be stressing anyone out this weekend by going into labor tomorrow. Daddy can be in the wedding and have a good time, Aunt Erin won't get interrupted on her camping trip and Gramma & Grampa won't have to worry about rushing home from Cortland. So I guess that's the good news.
I'm thinking if I just keep telling myself that I will be eternally pregnant then it will come as a complete surprise whenever you do decide you're good and ready to vacate the womb.
I'm so glad I'm getting my massage tonight. I really need it. And afterwards, pedicure with Kristy! If only I could have some wine while getting my toes done. But now I'm wondering if I'm using my pedicure gift card too soon. By the time you decide to come out I'm sure my toes won't be pretty still! :-( Oh well I'll have to just convince daddy that I need to get another one!
I love you Bean- but I would love you 110 times more if you would just come out.
Love,
Mommy